chillin wit one of ma besties

A's are the bizzle

jus chillin

Just goofin off

Friends

changing

Blackest night a wind so strong, My eyes glow red wit anger.

Ashamed to know the man I knew so long, is now a stranger

But I'm not disappointed, and my rage is not for him.

See it was I who changed and broke the line that keep us tied together

I swore to him no matter what we'd always have each other.

But times got hard for me and him are life was quick to change

I had to move and change with it, I didn't stay the same

So my anger now I hold in my heart is only toward myself.

For breaking our plan and pushing aside the person close to me

if you are here I want to say that I am so sorry.

When you needed me most I was not at my post, but please can you for give me?

Got My Wings

I remember the sweet words of freedom escape your lips, sugar stained and brightly colored

This freedom you spoke so kindly of, "The white winged Angel" I muttered

I got the thinking and hoping this freedom of a white winged angel would come and fly me away

So on a starlight night I awaited my flight, from night till day

But it never showed up my white wings of hope,

"Might as well rest my poor neck threw the loop of that rope"

"Stupid negro, only wings you'll see, are the ones you'll grow hanging from that tree"

the white devil told me

"say what you want I'll get my wings, one way or another"

I started to sing

and sure enough he marked my words

as the mountains moved that startled the birds,

The sun golden bright,

with all my might, I sang

"Say what you want I'll get my wings, one way or another

My voice all but screamed

Stepped on to a stool, rope lose but tight around my neck,

ain't bother to fight,

took one deep breath and sang some mo

Holding on to my life by the edge of my toe

"I'll get my wings, you wait and see"

"then you white devils can't bother with me"

He kicked the stool sound like a bouncing ball,

but to their surprise I didn't fall at all

Instead I flew,

Like I said I'd do

My wings so soft and white with a shade of blue,

my white winged angel showed up,"I'd knew you come through"

and my freedom I got as we both flew away,

now those mean white devils got nothing to say

who applauds me?

I watch the tears, and see your pain hidden in your face,

It almost works that wore out smile plastered on your face,

If only I hadn't see your eyes, that yell and scream inside.

your sorrow, hurt, and regret you all so well can hide,

I applaud you sister for making me believe your just as happy as you use to be,

I applaud you brother your anger you hide although it's breaking you, like a hammer to a plastic key.

Or is it me I applaud? for saying it will be okay, for promising a brighter day,

When I know so well the pain you feel, but try so hard to pretend it's not real.

Is it me I applaud? for a smile I can fake that seems so real that everyone else smiles too.

Or how about the lies I tell to keep my living life from hell, to try and live like once before

Do I applaud me? for my skillful joy that lingers when I leave, although inside like the rest of you I grieve.

Who applauds me for the hurt that I've caused? And the joy that I bring to fix it all

Who applauds me for the things that I've done? for the hope that I have, for the love that I give?

Who applauds me When the world turns their back on me, when the ATTACKS are thrown at once?

I applaud me, and you applaud you. If we do not know our own worth who else will?

So we must know what we are, who we are, and where we're going.

To all of you We applaud each other because we are strong 

So remember that you  applaud you and if you do it right every on else will applaud you too.