dream

MY eyes are closed and my mind is open but something is different.
My thoughts are not my own, the goals set are not mine, the accomplishments made were not for me
It seems I have lived my whole life for others not paying attention to what I want to do, or say
How I want to dress or act, Being controlled by all not just my parents, btu everyone.
It is hard for me to  feel disapointment from other people so I try to avoid the conflict by making them happy
I say quiet saying nothing as I always do
But when is enough?
I have beent told " why don't you dress like a girl?" because my style does not include skirts and dresses, high heels, and tight shirts.
I have been told "grow up" because I wanted to take my 7 and 9 year old cousins trick or treating
I have been belittled in everyway possible because my life did not meet the needs of others.
When is it ok to take my life back and live it as I want?
When is " my dreams of being an author  and a singer" acceptible?
I know being a singer is almost impossible but it doesn't hurt to dream, does it?
Have any of you ever had your dreams crush? do you know what that feels like?
The twisting of your stomach and dropping of your heart, I do not wish that on anyone
I say eneough is enough I am proud of who I am and who I want to become, no longer will I stay
silent as my body is used as a puppet, I want to be seen as me nto as what I am wanted to be.

YOu have to dream, anything less is unacceptible without dreams people have nothing to work towards.. Please if you are reading this send my your dreams And I will make sure they are heard and respected.