Tears fill my eyes as I look up at the sky but I refuse to let myself cry.
I refuse to feel bad for myself anymore, as my mother said why live in the past if we are in the future.
But the fact of the matter is we need the past to not only build the future but to learn from it.
Scares left unseen to others eyes but will always be known by me. I have gotten so good at pretending everything is ok I'm starting to believe it. People look at me and see nothing wrong, they see a simple smile plastered on my face reminding them of good times. They do not see eyes that fight back pain and tears. They see in my walk a since of pride and togetherness instead of the weakness and insecruities in every step.
But I will left my head up and soon everything is ok will not be an act on the t.v. of my life, It will nolonger be pretending.
I will place my fears, and scares at the door
